Tulip, Yes I can understand that you would be very interested in AMMACH!!! I don't think I would be willing to go on camera either. Kudos to those who do. I'm glad you are recovering memories & that the OBE contacts felt good. That jibes with one other recounter.
The Milab & NHS experiences are scary!!!! You can't trust anyone these days. Alternative medicine has a lot to offer. Do you do meditation & grounding & shielding? That  can't but help. Most people  here do that daily. There are many forums on that here.
Here's one  link:

http://www.anisoptera.com/grimoire/ground.htm