Darlin, you answered your own questions. And if you have to ask if your going to heaven, then the answer is a resounding yes. Our paths are predetermined by ourselves. Our destiny is predetermined by ourselves. You arent crazy, your know this yourself. It is hardwired into your DNA to know these answers or else you wouldnt have questions. Know that by asking these questions that your simply a good soul that happens to remember what happened before you incarnated. You will pass onto the other side and you will decide if you need another lifetime here or other places to fulfill your destiny. We are here for experience, that only here we can get. Dont let the details bog you down. Peace be with you and Blessed Be.. Cindy

You can get to heaven if you have lived this life in a way that is in balance with what you need to get there. Lived a good life following the ways of the lord, God, etc. or whatever higher power you believe in.