Maybe this will make you feel a little less confused...

When I refer to God I am talking about the sum of all the energy that is , both slowed energy (matter) and fast energy (pure energy, light).

I am also willing to say that I believe the true nature of this energy is joy, and the evidence is that the DNA slowly contracts when humans feel negative emotion and the DNA quickly expands when humans feel positive emotion, and since the fastness of the energy is manifested in quick DNA strand expansion and endorphines (Chemicals of happiness) we can directly connect speed with positivity (happiness) , and we also know the nature of the universe and its ever increasing speed of expansion!

Russian scientists have no problem admitting and even made technology with energy in mind which actually word with good results, but you won't see much of this in America and Europe (Most Western society) because in the west, in order for science to be acceptable it has to be "accepted" by peers and most western scientists are strictly materialists, otherwise you are laughed at, sometimes they ignore things on purpose or try to find the weakest excuse to explain away.

But there are hospitals in the east that don't use medicines but use monitors to show proof that it works!

They are more advanced in the science-spiritual regard.


Sources:

Science is corrupted - Union of concerned scientists confess

Russian DNA discoveries

Healing with intention (eastern hospitals)

Emotions and DNA

After I seen the scientific evidence I don't have doubt now. I know that not everyone will accept and will defend strict material but that is OK. I'm just saying this for people can WANT spirituality and WANT to see the evidence and accept. I am keeping my energy fast like the ever expanding universe/reality (God) by staying in appreciation and finding things to APPRECIATE in my life.  

I agree God is energy and we all are a form of it. It is not good or bad energy, it just is enegry in shifting forms.

at the end of the day all is same.