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Hm-bound. my part was somewhat an unusual (not so run-a-the mill) candidate selection process. In otherwards, I did not solicite to be part of the program, but was (how should I say) assisted to understand the importance of this particular specialty research. The discovery of my gift was passed on by a second party person whom I trusted, and, well I think you get the picture. My part, you will not find in print... although it was pegged by the gvt. as the Eglin File. I did write about it years later. eventually, I discarded the manuscript ,so as to avoid the pressure of scrutiny for myself and my family . In and of myself, it was not that difficult to cope, however it is hard for a wife and child to understand (often times). Although my wife has always understood my gifts and was well aquainted with some of my absolutes (for rules), still it housed impacts on our relationship (especially where a child had entered the picture). I'm happy to say that the rules were not at all un-reasonable, as perhaps a reason we have been married for 37 years (and still facinated with it all, though I have no new things to boast ). The rules were for my biological well being, within the times that my metobolic rate was 3 beats per min. - a.) don't shake me b.) don't shout at me ... and give me time to return the way I need too, for the best interest of staying alive. Ms. L was always intrigued with my ability to visit her when I was gone with the research... she truly needed that confirmation for things which nobody could ever know... it was good.
In short: you are right about some misgivings on the part of the government during this research, but such was the cloak of matters. Others in the program were not what I called well suited to any defense mechanism in their own necessary interest. example; For me, I was well cared for by three spiritual guides that continue to be with me even to this day. My guides were well beyond the researchers comprehension, and I never breathed a word about them or told em! Ha. Where I was not smart enough, they were and my words were very well spoken when necessary (not me, the guides channeling through me). To most, it was a 3 dimensional world thing, because they could not fathom anything beyond that level (for a lack of their own ability to grasp it or ride the vibrations of the spirit drum to other levels)... but today many like mysef have transended to other dimensiononal levels and back again, only to speak of it openly. It takes a great dicipline to perfect without making a mockery of what others are well adapted to understand in these contemporary open times. For as sure as a gift is given, it can be taken away. respectfully
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