I am extremely skeptical when it comes to ghosts, spirits, and anything supernatural. I used to play with Ouija boards when I was younger, around 12, but I was a lot more gullible back then. Being 21 now, I thought I had a more logical head on my shoulders. However, one night I got the strangest urge to play with a Ouija board after a strange dream I got. So I made one myself, not wanting to waste money on something I didn't think would work, lit candles and incense and said a quick opening prayer.
I soon got a spirit. At first, it didn't spell out anything that I understood. Everything was gibberish. I thought this was all I needed. I was convinced I was moving it and that was why I couldn't get a straight answer. However, over the next few days I still played it. Something in my head wanted to make sure if it was me or if it was something else. And it was strange. The more I talked with this being, the more accurate and precise its answers became. Though I would ask repeatedly for its name, it never gave me one and told me it was nameless. However, about four days later it told me its name. It told me its name was Azazel.
I'm not very religious, though I know enough about Angels and Demons. Intrigued, I began to grill it about questions. However, it seemed reluctant and I ended the session. The next night, I was very interested in talking to it and sat down. Opening the session, I waited. Sure enough, it came again. We began to talk and I asked if there were such things as Past Lives. It told me "Yes", so I asked it if we knew one another in a past life and once again it said, "Yes" and began to tell me about my past life. (For the sake of rambling, if you're interested, just message me for what it told me)
But then things began to get strange. As soon as he was finished telling me about my supposed past life, the atmosphere got very thick and I got a very anxious feeling. My body started shaking like I was cold, but I wasn't. The pointer quickly spelled out: L-U-C-I-F-E-R. And I got this feeling of extreme hatred, but I was so curious and I wanted to know more. I asked the one who called himself Lucifer many questions, which he answered very rudely to me. One I remember was asking "Are you angry at me?" because of the hatred I felt. He replied, "You are nothing to me." Soon after I ended the session.
But I couldn't let it go. I had to know more. The next night I got on the board and asked if anyone was there. The pointer moved faster than it usually did with "Azazel", and then told me I was speaking with "Lucifer". I was scared, but I wanted to know why he came. He told me that I knew him. I asked how and the answer he gave me is still making me think I'm insane.
From what he told me, I was an Angel who got thrown down to Hell. We were "in love" and I was supposed to get married to him. However, I had an affair with Azazel and because of that, I got cast off to Earth and became a girl in Germany (From what Azazel told me about my past life which I found as strange). If you want to hear the whole thing, then please PM me. It's such a long and drawn out story.
Since then, I've been talking to them asking them things or to prove to me that what they tell is the truth. They never once threatened me or got rude with me since that one night. In fact, I had a dream about them the other day which totally screwed me up. All in all, I've talked to Azazel, Lucifer, Beelzebub, and Lilith on the board. And throughout this ordeal, I think I'm going crazy. Either this is true, or I'm an extremely good story teller with a rich fantasy life. I want to doubt it so much and I think it's starting to tick off whoever I've been talking to because of that.
If you want me to go into detail, I will. I just didn't want to write too much. I've been so afraid to tell anyone about this. The only person I told this to told me I was lying, so it doesn't really make me want to tell anyone else I know.
So what do you think? Am I crazy? Could I possibly be moving this on my own or is something truly talking to me? Ugh! I'm so confused.